My summer has taken off like a rocket and I feel like I’ve almost missed it–already. It’s almost July 4th? What happened to June? Anybody feel that way?
I had a big project arise in early June, so that captured my focus right up to my family vacation. Then, I was off to Orange Beach, Alabama for a chaotic, game-playing, food-filled, family extravaganza. It must be said, that my family does it right. We scatter a mixture of extended family members in different condos, we put together meals for 25+ people, we play craps, we do puzzles, we watch West Wing, we paint rocks. Are you getting the picture. It’s on.
After vacation rushed by, I dove back into work where a new client is consuming a lot of my mental energy right now. I’m so grateful for this new project and excited for the different challenge and nervous about doing it well.
I’ve just been busy. Busy busy busy. It always amazes me how quickly all my good intentions and good habits fade away in the face of life’s unexpected-ness. All my big talk about life in balance can quickly be subsumed by just keeping my head above water. Doing things I really enjoy becomes less convenient and less compelling, while skipping the rituals that make me feel calm and centered and connected starts to seem like a good idea.
This post is really just me telling on myself. I don’t want to go backwards to the days where I worked like a hamster on the wheel–day after day. I want to be present. I want to be awake. I don’t want to just get through. I don’t want to miss anything in the rush of getting things done.
So I’m recommitting to reaching out to friends, to getting exercise that keeps me sane, to pausing, to looking up, and to keeping track of what I’m thinking and feeling in a journal or blog post. (Disclaimer: Beloved readers, I use this blog to excavate, to question, and to free myself through telling my truth. It’s all about me, though sometimes I think about whether you too might be feeling this way 😝).
I want to savor this great life I have, not just survive it. And the only way I know to do that is to be deliberative and contemplative and intentional about living my best life. I hope you’ll join me.
Boonedoggler 